Is this love?

"He got his heart broken, had himself hurt for so many times because of that sole girl but it did not stop him from loving her."


I kinda like this girl. The problem is...well, she got a boyfriend. I don't know how long they have been or how much they love each other. All i'm sure about is that i like this goddess.


I'm not really THAT good at courting or expressing how much i like her. I suck at that. If it were something like leading, i think i would excel. Let's just say I'm a failure at that. A friend said, "I'm like a baby boy."


How do I see a baby boy? Sitting at a corner, contented by just holding his toy, a bib hung on his shirt, waiting for someone to assist him.


I guess I'm a baby boy after all. I'm contented with just seeing her, or at least hugging her for split seconds (HOW I WISH i could whisper to her ears, "I would love to hug you longer"). Oh yeah, I need to wear a bib too. Just to prevent mistakes from staining my life. Maybe I'm not ready to be a man yet. Not just yet.


This girl is....oh my god, i can't explain how much i like her. Her eyes, her smile-it makes me die inside. I could just feel her hands, her touch-i could run throughout the ENTIRE campus. Her hair reflects the sun's light, she simply brightens up my day. I never thought I could go up to her and say "hi." She seemed very insignificant at first. So unexpected. Why did we have to belong to the same political party? 


Anyways, We have been together quite a few times already. We conversed, laughed, and just sat there in silence. I told you    I'm no good at it. I told you! I don't think it's enough. I want to tell her how i feel, however, fear pents up. I get cowardly by the thought. You know what possibly could happen next.


1. She could not talk to me again.
2. Or she could....nah, i shouldn't even think about it. 


Anyways, I don't know,for now. I'll keep you posted. yeah?


I gotta decide where to take her for lunch.. suggestions? :)


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