love.

An excerpt from Brida, by Paulo Coelho.

Talbo looked at his wife. Her eyes were growing dull, and yet she still retained the same peculiar charm that had first drawn him to her. He had never told her certain things, about the women he received as part of the booty of battle, the women he met while traveling the world, the women who were expecting him to return one day. He hadn't told her this because he was certain that she knew everything anyway and forgave him because he was her great love, and a great love is above the things of this world.

But there was something else he had never told her, and which she would possibly never know: that she, with her affection and her gaiety, had been largely responsible for him having rediscovered the meaning of life, that her love had driven him to the far corners of the Earth, because he needed to be rich enough to buy some land and live in peace with her for the rest of his days. It was his utter confidence in this fragile creature, whose life was now fading fast, that had made him fight with honor, because he knew that after the battle he could forget all the horrors of war in her arms, and that, despite all the women he had known, only there in her arms could he close his eyes and sleep like a child.

♣ ♣ ♣

how i wish i'll find this girl soon.

the girl:
who'll be there to support me.
who'll be there to remind me that life is beautiful.
who'll be there to make my day the best.
who'll be there to guarantee that i'll never be alone.
who'll be there with me in my ups and downs.
who'll be there accept and understand me.

who'll love me for who i am.

*Sigh

Carry me away
From the dark I fear
When the storm is near
From the endless night
From my blinded sight
To a sky of light

Free me to fly away
Salva me
         -Libera (Salva Me- Libera)


I miss this freedom. I miss saying my feelings. I miss voicing out my pent-up emotions.


My whole Second Semester is soooo stressful.
This week has been the most stressful, so far.
I'm bombarded with all sorts of emotions- fear, anger, sadness, a little relief, apprehension, excitement.
When I wake up, the room's dirty and I see ants walking around. I do not have enough time, enough cash.
It gets really frustrating, you know. I have become so irritable and people easily notice that I'm not in the mood.
I try to strive and excel but I fail. I really need to do something. 


I'm actually online in twitter and facebook right now, listening to Libera to calm myself.


What should I get myself for christmas? 
I'm excited to drive again. I hope my dad buys me a car already. I actually NEED it. (true)
Forgive me if I'm babbling, I just love the thrill of expressing right now :D


I envy many.